3月22日 im in a rut.

last time i updated, i talked about my driving classes and stuff.

well, i finished my driving classes. took my drivers test.

and i failed.

i fucking failed.

the test started out so terrible i just...........ugh.

my tester lady was your typical backwoods mullet wearing redneck cunt bitches.

i wanted to fucking push her head in my car engine....

but yeah, i failed. and i cried.

i didnt think i would cry, but i did ;_;

the lady at the dmv told me to come back and retake it.

and my instructor told me to schedule another appointment  with him so we can practice and take the test again tomorrow.

but when i called the driving school, they told me i had to pay another $110 just to take the test all over again.....

so basically i have to pay $110 every time i take that fucking test, and there might not be a garantee that i pass it the second time, or the third.

and i DONT just fucking have $110 like that to throw away--

so now idk what to do.........

i still have my permit so i can still practice. but im just going to push all my money together to buy a little car.

because all that money i would be spending on taking the test could go towards my car.

*the only reason the school charges $110 for the test is so i can use their car/insurance for the state road test*

so yeah, im a failure basically. and i feel shitty as fuck.

ive also been thinking about school and my dream and how im not doing anything to complete that goal...

im just a big fucking loser basically.

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

well, i guess i have a little bit of good news.

i finally bought my new xbox 360 :\

and i decided on my cosplay for acen 2012!

im going to be jynx the pokemon

this cosplay and mass effect 3 is my only escape from stress these days, so can i get a WOOP WOOP

to stress free??