2016 was bittersweet for me. I started the new year single, I broke up with my ex of 3 years. I felt so trapped being with him. Like I couldn't breathe. I was always tense and depressed whem with him so I had to let him go.
a few months in the new year I started dating another guy "he who must not be named." It started out surreal, blissful, and amazing. He was everything to me, I was crazy about him until he dumped me because he couldnt handle being in a relationship. I felt so fucking played. Because of this fuck boy, I had such a hard summer healing from him. Every day was such a struggle tbh....but I sort of made it through. We eventually got back together and he dumped me....again...for the same reason lmao.
This year was a big lesson in love for me. I learned to let go, no matter how painful it is. I learned the kind of love i have experienced is not the love i deserve...at all. I learned that the hard way.....cuz im hard-headed af. But im thankful for a clear mind now. My heart is still healing, but my mind is clear and focused.
There were some great points of my year. I conquered my fear of planes (sort of) and flew to LA for the first time! It was an amazing experience...truly. I felt so free...and happy. Like truly happy for the first time. I also got to visit NYC for the first time which was one of the best moments of 2016!!!! I enjoyed NYC so much im already planning another trip in April lmao.
Traveling really makes my heart happy💖
I also got to get crazy with my friends, and create more wild memories together :]
So yes overall, my year was bittersweet. Bitter because of the dickheads I gave my heart to, and sweet from the new experiences I had and fears I conquered. With that said, 2017 will be a great year for me. I have big plans for this year and can't wait to see what the universe brings me 🌟 I'm starting the new year right by planning a trip to portland to visit my girl Murphy! I seriously cannot wait to visit!
This year I want to travel more, even if they are small trips. I want to travel. Enjoy the world. I will be fearless in 2017. I want to get to a point in my life where I feel content and secure. I will not be dating in 2017. For the first time in a while, I want to be single. I have no desire to date right now. I just really want to focus on me and bettering myself. I havent given up on love or anything, its just not a priority for me.
Enough rambling, happy new year babes!
Im glad for all the new faces I have seen and souls I have met. You are all beautiful. Keep shining in the new year 🌟💖🌟